Can You Tell That I'm Avoiding Homework? :D

Here's a half-baked, sad little song that knows it's a sad song and makes fun of itself a bit.


I like to spend a lot of time alone
Spend a lot of time on my own
Away from everyone and everything

I don't wanna go to church anymore
I don't wanna go to school
Don't want to hear about the rules and laws and laws and rules

I will never understand you, you will never understand me
Why do we try so hard to
Look each other in the eye and call each other liars?

Existentialism has me locked inside a prison
And I'm by myself, I can't escape
I'm eating existential cake and

IF I'M GONNA DIE ALONE,
TELL ME WHY DO I NEED FRIENDS



(that's all I got on that one so far...)

Dying on a Rainy Day

So this one's more sentimental than most. Inspiration comes from some pretty weird places sometimes. And for this song, inspiration came from a lovely Turkish painter I met on the Internet. He loves the rain so much he told me he wants to die on a rainy day. I thought that was really poetic and told him I was going to write a song about it. He got really excited and even helped me come up with some of the lyrics.
It's got a pretty piano part in G minor. I made a gross garage band recording of it so my Turkish buddy could hear it's not worth posting here. I'll make a video of it eventually, after I make videos of all the other songs I've said I'll make videos for...

Anyway, without further ado:


Dying on a Rainy Day

Wake up, drink my coffee from a jar
Stare at the phone
Wait for the sun to turn to moon and stars
Water is falling, precipitating all around
I can hear you calling, capitulating,
Though you don’t make a sound

Chorus:
And I wanna die on a rainy day
When the world is a lovely shade of gray
Carry me off the stage of life in a torrential downpour
And if I could die on a rainy day
I would be content to go that way
With the rain in my hair and the feel of your hand in mine,
A bitter memory

There was nothing like our electric touch
Under the rain
Water pouring through my mind, the clouds are in my brain
And I will always remember this way
Wish you’d never let me go, please stay

Chorus

I shall take a brief interlude from my bizarro, depressing lyrics to say...

I love these boys.



Especially Matt Bellamy. I could marry him right now and die happy.
I am completely infatuated with "The Resistance." Album of the year, no doubt.
And, it's recent release has saved my week from being incredibly dismal.
So, thanks again Muse, for your beautiful music.
I swear, you have a song for every emotion I've ever felt.

A Depressing Little Ditty I Churned Out Before Class Today...

It's so nice to fall in love
With myself
Once again
I always know just what I want
I always get it
In the end
I say I want to be alone
With myself
My own best friend
But I know I'm not that happy
I just know how to pretend

Had a dream I rode around the world with strangers in a taxi
Met a charming man named Jack, his silly mustache was quite fancy
He asked me where I want to go
And I told him just to drive
He took me to the country
And he left me there to die

So I woke up in the morning with a grin upon my face
And I stayed in bed till evening
Didn't want to leave my place
And I hope my boss at work believes in mental health days!
You might think I am berserk
But I'm just going through a phase

It's so nice to fall in love
With myself
Once again
I always know just what I want
I always get it
In the end
I say I want to be alone
With myself
My own best friend
But I know I'm not that happy
I just know how to pretend

Mannequin!

Channeled Amanda Palmer (and every ounce of anger/bitterness/feminism inside me ^_^) for this one. Again, recording will come soon (as soon as I make one :D).



Messy, raw, and probably over the top in places, but there it is. Straight from the notebook.
Click on it and it will get bigger/less intimidating. (Or more intimidating. It's a pretty intense looking page. But I prefer that over neatly typing it into something with zero personality on the page).

Cookies, Illegibility, and a Snake Playing the Bongos

Once I was at the grocery store and overheard a slightly overweight woman go up to a cashier on her way into the store and say "If you see me buying cake when I come through here, don't let me do it." I found it terribly funny at the time, but I think I get it tonight. I thought it was a good idea to buy a big pack of cookies on sale even though I live alone. And what happened? I ate half of them. So tonight, instead of just feeling alone, I can feel alone and fat. I think I'll warn the cashier next time. Make them keep me accountable for avoiding impulsive cookie purchases.
Wrote a song last night around 4am. Took a video of it but when I watched it this morning I realized it's not something I want to put on the internet (definitely me in my pajamas playing the accordion on my couch...). I'll take a less-awful video of it soon perhaps.

Here's what the lyrics look like:

Okay, so those are all kinds of illegible. But if you click on it, it gets bigger and you can actually read it, if you have any desire to.

Here, have a picture of a serpent partaking in beat poetry (it was on the opposite side of the page for whatever reason. I <3 my notebooks)

Something Something Universe

I've been terrible at keeping up this blog. I guess you can blame it on the bleak songwriting dry spell of sorts I slogged through this summer. I've been a bit prolific lately (or attempted to be), so I'm going to work on updating this a lot more often.

That being said, here is the first of what is soon to be several half-baked song-droppings.
This one is more half-baked than most, and the video quality is horrific. But, alas, here it is anyway. Enjoy it in all of it's psychedelic late night sideways glory.



Haha...guess what my favourite song is right now? If you guessed Muse's "Uprising," you are correct!